What community?

     I find it very sad when people in your own community drag you down. When a cross-dresser tells you a FTM that you look girly, yet you can see their 5’o clock shadow and still say they look beautiful. When someone tells you that the young transgendered woman that you are interested in and are trying to figure out the dating game together is just toying with you because she’s bored. I don’t understand how we can go about yelling stick together and build a community when all we do is drag one another down.

     I sit back and I keep my mouth shut a lot of the times but this is the straw that broke my back. You may be right. I may look “girlish” right now but that could probably be because I have yet to take my first shot of testosterone. The young woman that I am fascinated by could possibly be using me or just “playing” with me as you so politely put it but it’s my life.  I find it laughable that I am to believe these people are part of my community but they don’t bother to get to know anything about me. You don’t bother to educate yourselves in what it’s like to be an FTM yet I am supposed to listen day in and day out about how hard it is to be MTF or a cross-dresser.

     I don’t doubt that you have it hard but I find it insulting that you believe my life is any easier. Do you know what it’s like to fear for your life from your own family? Did you run away from home with no money and no plan? You do not know me. You will never know me. I put on this bright smile and I accept each and every one of you. Please return that respect to me. I do not judge you. I do not tell you that the person you’re attracted to would never want to be with you really. I can’t understand how you think you’re building a community when you alienate your peers.

     If this young woman is toying with me well tough shit for me but please don’t put someone down when they’re finally finding some small piece of happiness. I'll get off my soap box now.